We had a pretty good run, 2007! But not in a lifetime ever. (So the German measles is the worst thing that you can do to me huh?? )

Do your worst 2008!! I'm just around the corner.

Bestest wishes everyone!! (and hell yeah, I'm pretty much isolated these past days.. thems the break.. fuck the german measles!! I'm going out to watch the crackworks.)

new addiction

He's smokin hot! I never really liked Josh Hartnett until Lucky Number Slevin happened. From a guy next door in 40 days, 40 nights to an epitome of my kind of guy in 30 days of night!! He can be a big brother to Steven Strait.. what you guys think?? God, Scarlett is a lucky girl.. but I still wouldn't trade my place to her.. not in a thousand years. Where was I when Josh visited Pinas? I could have run to Mindanao in a heartbeat.. I don't mind being a hostage as long as there's Josh to the rescue. LOL. Talk about estrogen.. people.

Waiting for the New Year.......

Don't you just love a classic bug transformed into this? I'm counting the days.. I bought a bug last Dec.24 and this will be my latest project.. I saw this pic on the net. Alex and I will be working on this by next year. This means.. we're going to starve to death. No dates.. No more expensive unneeded stuff for the rest of the year.. But it'll be fucking worth it.

I promise the hood will be drooling on this. Kratos is the name!

a piece of last year

This happened some time last year. This is from my other blog. It made me smile today..

old fragments of a not so old-october-affair

Sep 26, '07 9:49 PM for everyone

I know for a fact that its not the coldness that provoked me that October night to share your warmth. Mainly because I felt really alone and.. well maybe.. a bit lost. Disconnected from everything. Lord knows that I tried my bestest to dodge you but then again.. you caught me on my weakest moment. The next morning after we kissed, a friend of us noticed the glow in our eyes. To tell you the truth, I was a bit anxious that our first kiss happened in the wee hours of the morning of Friday the 13th. But then again.. happiness can pretty much lead you to distraction. At that point of time.. I just felt so alive. Corny.. yeah. But honest.

So we talked. There was a plan that night that we will hang out with friends. You said that you want to spend our alone time together but I pretended that I didn't hear that. Yeah.. although I can't really wait to be alone with you.. because you're so damn hot.. there was this thought at the back of my mind that I shouldn't hang out with you yet. Maybe I was afraid that I might do something stupid and you'll lose interest of me. You know.. the USUAL GIRL STUFF.

I hope you still remember those nights when we secretly hold hands underneath the table. Yeah.. we're pretty desperate to keep it discreet, huh? But then again.. nothing lasts forever. At some point.. we both know that our friends noticed us...the extra sweetness.. the extra togetherness... all the super extras between the two of us.

I came across the old text message. It says : I want to keep it and take care of it as long as I can. I don't want this to end yet. You are the only good thing that's happening to me, pretty.

And for what its worth... I didn't let go. Until I had to. Its something that we both agreed to do.

Remember the time when I was saying goodbye.. you smiled at me and whispered... I'll see you soon. There was an invisible pinch in my chest.. seeing you go while you said that. Like you, I never wanted it to end but then again I know its not the right time to stand up for it. We both know that we have other things to do. Other goals to accomplish...way bigger than the two of us. I said it a lot of times.. that love is just a state of mind. Yeah.. love didn't happen between the two of us. There was passion and understanding and longingness. Way... way.. cooler than love. And that.. hey you.. that is how we ended our time together. It was really worth my while.

Happy birthday. Your memories cheer me up.. during my darkest times.

-excerpt from the Diary of The Drama Queen

pre christmas D shit

I've been restless for the past days. Stressed. And will be stressed. Work is.. hellish. I think thats an understatement. Yeah. Go figure.

Thank God, I'm done with the Christmas shopping. Well.. almost done. i still need to buy 2 more gifts.( i bribed Ralph this morning so I really don't need to worry about him. He went for the cash.) Have you seen the new Starbucks Planner? For the past years, I've seen friends and colleagues drool at them. What the hell? Its a compilation of stationaries.. beautifully printed.. you'll feel so damn bad writing on them. Honestly, 'em I the only one here who thinks the fucken thing is a rip off? You'll buy like tons of coffee, put a sticker on whatever you call it coupon.. (mind you.. not just plain coffee.. they have like a category for each sticker cup that you need to fill up!) Wtf. I'm not going to throw my does for something so insignificant I'll feel so dumb for not being able to express the feeling of wasting papers. Isn't it a good feeling that you'll just carelessly rip off a sheet of paper in a notebook? Its called freeform writing.. whatever you call it (Watch Six Sense.. you'll know what I'm talking about.) I'm a doodler. I'd prolly give it to someone if I receive a Starbucks planner this Christmas. Well.. I don't think that there's a real generous person in the office anyway.. but still.. I'd give it away. I'd feel so pressured owning it. This is just the stress talking...

The Xmas party will be on the 16th in Cubao. I'm still not going.. I'd be so damned stressed traveling from Laguna to Cubao. I need to attend a party at Tita B's place in Belair. The exchange gift party that'll freak Alex out if I miss it.

i wish that this month will be over soon. Ballparked. Really. i mean i;m really looking forward to the Holidays and all but work is just killing us. I'm talking about me and Jed. We've been bouncing off the floor like real maniacs just to accomodate the 32 people. 19 dumb people.. 12 dumber. HAHAHHAHAHHA. I'm just really joking. Thats how it is when you have trainees anyway.. and to be really fair.. they are just newbies. But sooner or later.. they will become brilliant reps. Wink.

Zzzzzzzzs.. where are you? My body is ready.. but my mind just keep on wandering from one topic to another...

Its getting late.. and cold too.

Signing off..

100th post! yey!

I can't believe I was able to keep this blog. I have another blog that contains all the drama in my life but then I wasn't able to keep it. Yeah, eventually I put a stop on feeling pretty dramatic most of the time so there's really nothing to write there. But I know sooner or later I might just update the sight because honestly.. who can avoid drama?? Hell, I don't like it but I realized that without all the D shit then we can never say that we're stronger right?? I got home pretty early today because I was in the office 4 hours earlier than my usual shift. I'm almost done filling up the seats... so thank God for that. The only thing that I need to worry about will be the upcoming christmas shopping and a dozen of reunions to attend to. I might not be able to make it on my Christmas party this coming 15th because I need to be in Alex's aunt house for the exchange gift party on the 16th. Hopefully by then, I already have a car to avoid the hassle of commuting. Keeping my fingers crossed. ;)

I can't seem to get this thought out of my head for the past days.. GETTING MARRIED. Ok, don't freak out.. I'm not yet ready to go to that phase. I was just thinking about it because two of my closest guy friends are already married.. well technically, the other one will be getting married this coming 28th. My bestest friend in the world tied the knot early this year. It broke my heart to see him taking the decision at an early age.. but hell, at some point life compels us to do things like that right? Especially when we are so in love. My only wish for these two great guys is to find happiness after all the heartbreaks and drama that they have gone through pretty much on the early years of our friendship. I love these guys, i really do. And if I could, I would want to take care of them for the rest of my life but all boys need to grow up. Thats just something that I need to get used to. At the end of the day, if everything didn't work out fine for them... I know for sure that they had the time of their lives. We cannot outsmart getting hurt right? We need to let down our guards to make each time worth while.. to feel alive again.. but then payback is a bitch. Em i making any sense here??

I don't have plans of getting married yet. If you asked me, I've been into this relationship for quite sometime.. 7 years.. and still no plans. Well actually we have a plan to settle two years from now.. but 2 years is a long time.. I really don't know whats going to happen then. i love my guy of course, thats the honest truth, I just don't want to plan everything ahead only to find out in the end that we'll both have a change of heart. Its devastating. I guess my problem is I always have my guards up. i don't let anyone in even if it kills me to lose a person.. I am super understanding, a friend once said. And i see that its one of my major flaws. I realized a lot of things when I was single. Bless me. We can only have moments of clarity when everything seems pretty blurry at the start. How can you know light when you didn't go off wandering in the darkness for a long time?? Thats what I'm talking about.

Maybe I will get married or maybe not.. but one thing is for sure... i am in love like most of the married couples that I know. I am responsibly in love with a person that I've been with for 7 years. Sure we both made mistakes in the past but we get back together and realized that we've grown a lot from all these things. Cheating at some point is inevitable in a relationship.. without it we won't feel "real". I'm not saying its a good thing but c'mon.. its one of the downside of being human right? We sometimes love to be in a mess. But after cheating there are a lot of things that we can realize.. above all the drama there's still the struggle of picking up the shattered pieces.. glued it.. to comfort ourselves that we are unbreakable now. Yeah, whether we like it or not.. we are breakable.. what makes you think that we are unbreakable anyway? Thats not a way to live..

This is life. This is me. This is the world. The world we all live in.. if you can stand up in the crowd and blurt out in the open that you have never experienced heart aches and loneliness... then what is it that you live for?? How will you know the feeling of happiness when you haven't experienced being lonely? Love when you are unloved at some point?? If you admit to yourself that you made mistakes and outlive to realize in the end that you are a better person.. then you deserve a standing ovation. Isn't that what we all live for? To fail and succeed... to stumble and stand... to cry and to smile.. without all of these.. honestly, whats the point of living??

yeah.. you bet. Drama.. Drama.. Drama. Yeah, I take my title seriously.

So long for my 100th post.. check you all later.

Bedtime Drama

I'm almost at the end of the game.. I started playing it yesterday.. boy, I'm so slow. If only I could play some more but I have to put down the controller and get ready to hit the sack. First day of work today.. and I have to wake up pretty early tonight to interview people for the final ramp of my account this year. I have to fill 24 seats and we're soooooo late. The class was supposed to start last Nov. 30. So.. you get the picture.. I'll be running around the office in the wee hours of the morning with my stilettos on. Gosh. I love my job. :) Thats the new mantra.

Have you noticed the change in the background?? Yeah.. its pretty melodramatic.. but this song brings so many memories.. there's always the adrenalin rush when I hear it. Ok, I'm not going to put you guys through all of that. Hehe.

I've watched SHOOT EM UP yesterday. It was so cool. How in the hell did they come up with some fucken twisted ideas?? Its a kick ass movie.. short but kickass. My favorite part was the park scene.. the guy was soooooo pissed.. he whispered.. FUCK ME SIDEWAYS. Hahahaha. Laughtrip. But ok.. ok.. here's what you need to know.. MONICA BELLUCCI is still smokin hot.

My dad is going ballistic outside my room as we speak. Some stupid act that my sister pulled... I wonder what that is... but i'm about to sleep so I'll just ask him later.

i'm not yet sleepy but I know I need to get some zzzzzzzzs....

Catch you all later.

Long long weekend.

There was once a guy who told me that one of my great assets is my HANDS. He said that mine were soft and long and just like a model's. He also said that any girl would kill to get a hand like mine's. Now honestly, where did he come up with all that shit?? If there is a disease where the varicose veins can grow in your hands.. my hand will be the best spot. Common... I play video games during my Idle times at homes.. when I say Idle time that will be like 2 days or so. I take my games seriously... its like a part time job or something. I don't have any expensive games.. kahit game boy advance.. pede na.(Well, when I'm filthy rich..I would really want to restore muscle cars anyways.. but then I'm not.. so the Project Camaro, Pontiac, Stang and the Mach's would need to wait a lifetime.. geez.) But I really hope that I can buy a car before the year ends... what do you guys think of restoring a '67 bug? Classy right? I'm planning to paint it metallic black and the mag wheels will be red.. or vice versa. I'm also planning of installing the '98 bug headlights on the classy one. I've seen one out in the street some time last week after watching Beowulf in IMAX at MOA. Maaaaaan.. the bug was so classy. I was drooling inside the cab. I can see the upholstery inside and it was just great. And yeah.. there's the Volks metallic signature in front. Really classy... a friend once told me that it will cost around 250k to 300k to restore an old beetle for a show. But hey! I'm not planning to join a contest or something.. just wanting to restore a classy car. Wait.. till you see the plans that I drafted to restore the Camaro and the Mustang.. and yeah.. the Thunderbird car.. but damn.. I'm still not rich. Need to save up first for the wedding first right?? Whoa.. who's getting married? No one guys.. I just wrote what I had at the top of my head.. Holda' who says this entry is for muscle cars and wedding shit?? Why do I even start talking about it anyway? The post said long long weekend.. yeahhhhhhhh.. I'll be on leave tomorrow! Rest rest rest!!

Ok.. believe it or not.. this entry is for the first GOD OF WAR game. I actually had it on pause as of the moment. I was so awe that I got really excited blogging it. I defeated some monster hydra and still.. I so want to blog it that I kept on dying crossing some stupid wrecked ship. As we speak, my TV screen says: YOU ARE DEAD. It gives me two options.. Restart game from last checkpoint or Quit game? Hell no! Not a quitter.. but my PC is just beside my TV so I decided to blog anyways. I had this game for centuries but my PS was not playing it when we first bought it. So I had to play the second part of the game. I was so bored this evening and was actually playing RE4: ASSIGNMENT ADA with Alex but he went home just past 11 so I decided to go to sleep. But I saw my Dad watching an old bond movie that he got from my collection and had to ask him to return it in my room right after he watched it.. but he bombarded me with a dozen of James Bond questions which helped me to stay awake and a bit excited to regal him with my James Bond trivias... but unfortunately he asked me to go back to my room and play PS because he can't concentrate on the movie. Honestly.. what is it about boys and their ego? I was under the impression that my Dad got pikon with all the things that I know about boy stuff. There was this one time that he asked me what's the name of Magneto's son and I answered Quicksilver in a heartbeat. Booy.. you should have seen the look on his face.. all the colors were drained.. as if he wants to blurt out in the open.. : WHATS WRONG WITH YOU?? Well.. he could have asked me some Barbie questions and he could have walk away with the victory in his face. But then again I thank God that my Dad doesn't watch Fairytopia and the like.

Well.. anyway,Alex was here a couple of hours ago helping me with our Christmas Gift List.. we cut down on out close friends and family list but all in all. we still have 75 gifts to buy this weekend. Shit.. the other 8 reps that will be added on my team is not on the list yet.. so go figure. We also set a budget for the Christmas shopping. I just wish that i still have the energy to shop after shift this Saturday.. or I might just end up screaming and throwing tantrums to him at the mall.

Heeeeeey.. what the hell?? This was supposed to be about God of War right?? Geez.. I have so many things in my head.. I'm having a blogger moment. Hehe. And yeah.. I have to tell you about the cute pair of shoes that was given to me by Alex's sister.. thank God.. I finally have something to wear on Margo's wedding this 28th. Hope by then I already have a car so that I'm off Eunice's back. Hehe.

oh geeeeez.. I left the TV idle for quite some time now.. Have to sign out and finish the game. Its 2:30 in the morning already.. but I ain't scared to oversleep later.. my Dad just got inside their room! I bet he'll wake up really late later.

So.. if you guys are wondering what I'm doing these past days.. I'm not out of town or anywhere.. just lying around my bed inside my comforter... playing.... yeah.. GO FIGURE!

You have a nice week ahead, bloggers! :)

Marin: Oh mom, I hate this. Now do you get my theory about all this? You gotta self-protect.
Erica Barry: You don't really buy this stuff you say, do you? You don't actually think that you can outsmart getting hurt?
Marin: I think it's worth trying.
Erica Barry: Listen to me. You can't hide from love for the rest of your life because maybe it won't work out... maybe you'll become unglued? It's just not a way to live.
Marin: Are you telling me this is good? What's happened to you?
Erica Barry: I think you should consider the possibility that you and I are more alike than you realize. I let someone in, and I had the time of my life.
Marin: I've never had the time of my life.
Erica Barry: I know, baby. And I say this from the deepest part of my heart. What are you waiting for?

-Something's Gotta Give, Movie
*Lines from IMDB movies, picture from Google Search. (vladstudio.powweb.com.)